What I Worry About - Part 2
January 8, 2020

     I worry about my eyesight.  I worry about my ongoing struggle with acne.  I worry about soil erosion, loss of soil fertility, and the nutrient density of food.  I worry about biodiversity and the preservation of wild spaces on the earth.  I worry about planning this year‛s hike for Emma‛s Scouts group.

      I worry about nuclear weapons and the spectre of nuclear holocaust.  I worry about planting more fruit trees on our farm.  I worry about the plastic in the oceans and the casual moral indifference that put it there.  I worry about how indifference can morph into malevolence, especially when it is borne on a tide of entitlement.  

     I worry about runaway consumerism and the blindness and helplessness it breeds.  I worry about how I will teach my children to look at difficult and interesting and beautiful things, to see the grandeur of creation despite the dulling effects of consumerism.  

     I worry about seeing the truth and telling the truth.  I worry about my tendency to look away.  I worry about missing the boat, missing the mark, missing the chance to get it right.  I worry about the student debt load that Brad and I still carry and how to give my children the opportunity to shoulder different burdens than that one.  

     I worry about running out of time.  I worry about spring planting and this year‛s growing season.  I worry about whether we‛ll get the blueberries planted this year.  I worry about my kids being bitten by snakes or falling into the pond.  I worry about the time they spend watching TV.  I worry about whether I‛m really paying due attention.